Nervous!!!

Tomorrow (about 12 hours from now to be exact) we have the 1st visit of our Home Study. We have been feverishly working on getting our house ready and we are just about there. I sit here tonight with no children in the house. They went to grandma and grandpa's for the weekend and as much as I like a break occasionally, I am really missing them already. But since there was a lot to get done today and tomorrow, that is the best place for them.

Joe and I are both nervous. I mean, not that I think it is going to be bad, but this is like one of our FIRST steps to adopting Jacob. This lady that comes tomorrow and spends two hours with us will decide (at least initally) if we are able to continue on this journey. ONE woman who knows nothing about us other than the things we have told her, then references that we have gotten and meeting us for two hours tomorrow. We will have another visit with her again in a few weeks and that is it. I know that she knows what she is doing. She is licensed to do International Adoption Home Studies, but it just seems like such a short time frame.

Please pray that she thinks we will be good parents to Jacob. I started thinking about it last night and actually had an anxiety attack. I couldn't catch my breath and my heart was pounding. Sweats and all. Then this wave of emotion came over me and I cried. Not because I was sad necessarily, but just emotional. Pregnancy is an emotional rollercoaster for sure, but I don't think it is anything compared to adoption!! Wish us luck tomorrow and I will post after it is over and we can breath again for a couple days until another "thing" needs to be done!!