Tuesday, May 5, 2009

3 days

Well we are now at about 3 days until we leave for Ukraine. It is a bit surreal that a week from tomorrow we have our SDA appointment! Goodness, it feels like a lifetime ago that we committed to adopting Jacob and then in the same second it feels like yesterday. Am I freaking out? ABSOLUTELY!! Not in a bad way, just a very focused way.

I have been trying to think when it will really hit me that we are going 1/2 way around the world to meet our son. I think when our plane takes off from Des Moines, that the feelings will all come rushing through. Leaving our kids behind, making the journey of a lifetime, and meeting our new son! It will all come flooding in and the reality of the situation will quickly come into focus.

We will be leaving the house long before the kids get up for the morning. I think that will be easier in some respects, but hard in other ways. I am worried about the kids, although they will be in good hands, I still worry. Josie and Owen will miss us, I know that, but I am worried about Katie! She and I have this special bond. She is a mommy's girl though and through! I worry that when I get back, our relationship will change and I don't want that to happen. I know that eventually they won't even remember it happened, but reality is that it is happening now.

We will get to skype with them and I hope that will help while we are gone. They are very excited that Jacob is coming home so that will help them focus also! I know in my head they will be ok, but I worry in my heart. Just the nature of mommy I guess!

We are getting things crossed off our list and tonight is Joe's last night of work and tomorrow is my last day of work also so tomorrow night we can start to make a real dent in our "to do" list. Luckily it is getting shorter and shorter by the day!!! Please pray for easy transitions for our whole family!!!

1 comment:

Julie said...

I CAN'T WAIT to see you guys with Jacob!! Have a wonderful trip and take this hug I'm sending with you!