Thursday, June 21, 2012

Visits….and tears!

Well todays visits went well.  Better than well as a matter of fact, at least the first one.  The kids were outside when we got there at 9:30 am.  Landon saw me from across the playground and ran to me…arms outstretched and jumped into my arms.  It has been like this almost since the 3rd or 4th visit. 

Soon after the Dr came out with about 3 people with her.  I wasn’t sure what was going on but Dani explained that they were getting their teeth checked.  Landon was quick to get in line until he realized that they were going to look in his mouth.  He doesn’t mind if I do, but they had instruments and I think that scared him and when it was his turn he threw a fit.  They checked his teeth and off he ran to me for comfort (which I just loved!). 

For the last couple days I have noticed that he has an adult tooth coming in behind a loose one in front.  From what I could tell by looking this would be his first lost tooth.  Then the Dr and the director explained to Dani that they were going to pull the semi-loose tooth in front so the other one could grow in correctly.  They would do it when he had calmed down.  I wanted to suggest that I hold him so he might not throw such a fit, but wasn’t sure what they had in mind so I just waited.

Pretty soon all the kids had been through the process and it was time for Landon to have his tooth pulled.  The director quickly told the orphanage dr who had been holding all the kids that maybe mama should do it.  I was happy.  So we sat down, I crossed my legs over his, wrapped my arms around him and held his head.  He tried very hard to get away, but his efforts were futile.  I am still bigger than him!  LOL

It was quick beyond quick and the dentist had his tooth out.  He ran from me, but quickly got over his anger at me for holding him down and came to me for comfort.  He bled on my shirt…I didn’t mind and I asked if I could have his tooth.  His first lost tooth and they gave it to me.  I was so happy to be there for that.  I know it doesn’t sound like much, but I haven’t gotten to share any firsts with him and this is one that I could. 

Then we took the 4 boys and went to the park with the psychologist.  We had fun, but the trip was cut short when one of the other boys went down the slide (he was being crazy) and fell off the end and hit his head.  It didn’t seem like much at first, but when he went to get up, blood started pouring down the back of his head.  Luckily I had a hand full of napkins in my purse and gave them to her to use.  We quickly walked back to the orphanage and he didn’t require stitches, it apparently wasn’t a large cut.  They put a bandage on it over his hair and he was good to go. 

The second visit today was a bit more trying.  The kids were inside because it’s really hot.  There were 15 kids in one not very big room with all kinds of toys.  They were CRAZY!!!  The room was a complete mess when they were done.  There was a caregiver who is very strict that came in and had a fit.  She was yelling at the kids.  We picked up the room.. the kids who weren’t so terrified of her that they shut down and sat in the corner.  Landon was helpful in tearing the room apart so he sat in a time out next to me…  that was my doing.. then I made him help pick up the rest of the room.  Then it was time to go.  Only about an hour today. 

I was ok, until I realized that there would only be two more visits with him and then I have to leave him for several months.  I don’t want him to think that I abandoned him.  That I have left him.  I want Dani to explain to him that I am coming back and then I will take him out of the orphanage forever.  I know tomorrow afternoon is going to be hard.  I appreciate prayers as we have our final hours together tomorrow. 

Not too many pictures today but here is one of him riding the trike!



Julie said...

I haven't been good at posting comments but I'm reading your blog posts avidly!! Your Landon is just so adorable! I can't get enough of his gorgeous face :). Glad your visits are going smoothly.

Sabrina said...

I'll be praying for your heart as you have your last visits and then leave. I'm still waiting for the first trip and already I'm afraid she'll think we've abandoned her.

Shelley said...

I'm not going to lie to you, tomorrow will be incredibly hard. Just keep reminding yourself that this is a big step in getting to the end of the process. Take lots of pictures too....they help while you wait!

rosedel said...

I'll pray for you as you leave him for a short time. In a lifetime these months are a small piece. You will have him for so many wonderful events and holidays, keep that in your heart.